Have you ever been going about your daily routine without a care in the world, or none that are surfaced at the moment LOL! And all the sudden BOOM! you are hit out of the blue with overwhelming emotions, and you are reminded of things that where said in years past, rejections and words that cut you down to your very core. You begin to feel the weight of those things bearing down on you. and then the lies begin to fill your mind, "I told you your not good enough! I told you they wouldn't like you! I told you, your where not worthy! You don't belong! They only accept you cause they feel sorry for you!" and it goes on in on...
What in the world! Where is this coming from? You thought you where doing good and sailing right along in life, that stuff has been out of the way for a good while.
Then you hear the whisper, the one whisper that carry's all authority and that touches every cell of your being. "It's Time." And it's in that moment you realize God wants to heal you of those things.
Those things you have shelved berried hid and told yourself your over it.. You have chosen to forgive and move on, but it still lingers hidden in the recesses of your mind. Those things that have caused you to imprison yourself, wall yourself off. Let no one in for fear of rejection. Those things that make you sit in the back corner of the room hoping no one will notice you, yet you struggle with being lonely, all because those wounds you imprisoned yourself in a bubble of self protection so you will not have to face rejection again. Those things that keep the world at arms length only letting them in so far cause of the trust issues you now have. And dare I say those things that keep God at arms length because you fear he might somehow reject you to! Those things that cause you to only have animals as your best friends because they love and except you without conditions. Those things that keep you from reaching out because you don't want the world to see your struggles cause just maybe they might agree with them..
Lies from the enemy! That is what those things are! Those things are a very weapon that is formed against you to self destroy your own identity! The "I AM" says who I am! my Identity is in Christ Jesus! I am molded and created by his hands I am chosen! Before I was in my mothers womb he knew me! The Spirit of God who is greater then the enemy in the world LIVES in me! I am the head and not the tail! I am a child of the most high God! No weapon formed against me shall prosper! in Jesus name!
So today is my day! My day that my freedom begins I am sitting down with God to address those very things that have been secretly effecting me, my relationships with others and my ability to trust. I am surrendering and letting go!
If anyone understands rejection Jesus understands it the most! He was rejected by mankind despised and held in low esteem (Isaiah 53:3) but his love covered all! Love! I want unending love to flow out of this being! I want to be a yielded vessel to do what God wants me to do! Not locked in a prison of my own making, feeling sorry for myself, Walking in fear of what others will think of me.. I am a work in progress and I know God is faithful to complete what he has started! I just have to say yes to him! and today my heart is yelling a big resounding YES!
Why do I share such things you might ask. I share because I know I am not the only one who goes through stuff! And if I can help one person in this world by bearing my own imperfections then I will share my heart!
Don't stay locked in that prison! There is so much that this world needs and you are part of it! You have a purpose and a destiny! God chose you for this very time! Stop letting the enemy rob you of the wonders of who you are! Reach out to someone who can pray with you or for you! and start living the life you where intended to live! <3
Awesome...
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