When God says its time...

Have you ever been going about your daily routine without a care in the world, or none that are surfaced at the moment LOL!  And all the sudden BOOM! you are hit out of the blue with overwhelming emotions, and you are reminded of  things that where said in years past, rejections and words that cut you down to your very core.  You begin to feel the weight of those things bearing down on you. and then the lies begin to fill your mind, "I told you your not good enough! I told you they wouldn't like you! I told you, your where not worthy! You don't belong! They only accept you cause they feel sorry for you!" and it goes on in on...

  What in the world!  Where is this coming from?  You thought you where doing good and sailing right along in life, that stuff has been out of the way for a good while.
  Then you hear the whisper, the one whisper that carry's all authority and that touches every cell of your being. "It's Time."  And it's in that moment you realize God wants to heal you of those things.

  Those things you have shelved berried hid and told yourself your over it..  You have chosen to forgive and move on, but it still lingers hidden in the recesses of your mind.  Those things that have caused you to imprison yourself, wall yourself off. Let no one in for fear of rejection. Those things that make you sit in the back corner of the room hoping no one will notice you, yet you struggle with being lonely, all because those wounds you imprisoned yourself in a bubble of self protection so you will not have to face rejection again. Those things that keep the world at arms length only letting them in so far cause of the trust issues you now have. And dare I say those things that keep God at arms length because you fear he might somehow reject you to!  Those things that cause you to only have animals as your best friends because they love and except you without conditions.  Those things that keep you from reaching out because you don't want the world to see your struggles cause just maybe they might agree with them..
  Lies from the enemy! That is what those things are! Those things are a very weapon that is formed against you to self destroy your own identity! The "I AM" says who I am! my Identity is in Christ Jesus!  I am  molded and created by his hands I am chosen!  Before I was in my mothers womb he knew me! The Spirit of God who is greater then the enemy in the world LIVES in me! I am the head and not the tail! I am a child of the most high God!  No weapon formed against me shall prosper! in Jesus name!
  So today is my day! My day that my freedom begins I am sitting down with God to address those very things that have been secretly effecting me, my relationships with others and my ability to trust.  I am surrendering and letting go!
  If anyone understands rejection Jesus understands it the most! He was rejected by mankind despised and held in low esteem (Isaiah 53:3) but his love covered all! Love! I want unending love to flow out of this being! I want to be a yielded vessel to do what God wants me to do! Not locked in a prison of my own making, feeling sorry for myself, Walking in fear of what others will think of me.. I am a work in progress and I know God is faithful to complete what he has started! I just have to say yes to him! and today my heart is yelling a big resounding YES!
  Why do I share such things you might ask. I share because I know I am not the only one who goes through stuff! And if I can help one person in this world by bearing my own imperfections then I will share my heart!
Don't stay locked in that prison! There is so much that this world needs and you are part of it! You have a purpose and a destiny! God chose you for this very time! Stop letting the enemy rob you of the wonders of who you are!  Reach out to someone who can pray with you or for you! and start living the life you where intended to live! <3

I am, who he says I am.......(A Warrior)

When your called to the battlefront, when your ministry.... is not.... The pretty package the church wants to present to the public…. you might scare them… you might turn them away… Our numbers (members) might go down….. you hear whispered quietly in the background…. 

God is an all loving God....  let’s not talk about the devil.... let’s not spiritualize everything... We will just skip this part of the Bible…  Let’s focus on the positive..

The chairs,  the tables the pews are filled with broken… addicted.. wounded souls… who are seeking freedom from the torment of the demons who taunt them unmercifully… But where God is… the devil can’t be.. is echoed through the walls of the church….

 A warrior is what you are called to be.. Your armor is warn, damaged, and ugly from the battles you have been called to fight.. You cover it in sackcloth as you walk humbly before the Lord… You have been asked to war for the church.. Once again you have been asked again to stand For the protection of the pastor and the saints.. To be a watchman on the wall and sound the alarm when the enemy is on the move..

People see you.. watch you from a distance, some who are curious, some who are appalled by you, some who will judge, Some will recognize that you can help! and seek you out.. You stand guard even when you know you are not wanted, …… (God gave her a time to repent)……..

You've been through the fire fighting the battles God has called you to, you have been broken and endured wounds on the front line fighting under the direction of the Lord..  You have seen the aftermath and destruction this battle has brought.. When the body (church) is surrendered… ......willingly….... and given over to this spirit….

It’s here…. You recognize the signs…. The beginnings…  You have herd the familiar words spoken again and again from its mouth ….. it’s just a strong personality… said again by those in charge….

You have seen the seductive poison it serves those who it wishes to destroy…. You watch as it works its way into every nook of the church stroking the egos of its soon to be victims..

It knows you know…. Its made a mistake… its revealed its plan… It boldly threatens you…
(there will be a price to pay for the message you bring)…

A target you have become… the warrior.. the watchman… It wants to shut your mouth… it knows the power you wield…. It will shut your mouth… The assassin is on the move….

Discredit you… is its plan…. The words begin to flow like milk and honey to those who will hear… It will attack anything in covenant and that which is pure…
(Those boys are being overly sexual in the church)

Whispers of doubts about you are echoing through the vulnerable.. the insecure… those who do not know there identity in Jesus….

You expose its plans… and bring it to light……

 It has happened the poison has seeped in….. the seduction has encumbered those who stood by your side… Those who seen the truth and stood in agreement with you..  those who stood to fight against the destruction pushing against the body….. those who would fight for the freedom of the church

It seeps into the minds of those you have trusted those you have stood in battle with…. those who have seen the freedoms and healing's God has done… …
(You don’t see all you don’t know all)…. (She seeks to destroy the prophets)

those who will now….not question… the most vulnerable person of all the one who the assassin seeks out to destroy….. The one you where trying to protect…..
(she surrounds herself with unic’s)

It is done… You have done all you can do… (biggest easiest door to get in by in pride and rebellion)

The battle is ragging.. the decision has been made…. Its just personality traits, (Jezebel)..........

Fine Wine and Lemons

 Oh boy!! You know how you have these granderous intentions to be dedicated and souly involved in something so spectacular and you are determined to inspire the world and change it! Yes that is me in a nut shell... But then life happens things change and time slips away as you are working twords you goals and dreams.. I consider my ideas and dreams like a fine wine fermenting on the shelf.. The longer they ferment the better and more valuable they become!  Although I don't drink wine its the easiest analogy I  can think of lol.. As I never stop dreaming.  My dreams are BIG and many! :) to big some may say for my own good! but never to big for my heart and mind as I truly believe God has placed them in my heart for a reason.. :) ... 

 Such as this blog becomes a fine wine on my shelf of things I still want to accomplish :) so here I am updating this dream giving it a lil air to breathe so to speak LOL!! :) 

 When life throws you lemons you have a choice to suck on the sourness of it all, or you can make good ol fashion lemonade! Things don't always go the way we have planned for them to.. BUT somewhere in the grenade exploding and our plans are no more.... There is a beauty in the ashes.. Its all on how you see you it.. :)  You can spend your time cleaning up the mess repairing it trying to put it back together again, except the fact it will never be the same. And suck on the sourness of that lemon.. OR.. you can see the beauty in the mess! No more of a perfect time to make Lemonade! ... See this mess, this moment as a time for new beginnings new adventures! Take the time to ask yourself, where you overly happy where you were? Is it the dream you have always wanted to live or have?  was the (pre) mess holding you back some how burdening you and weighing you down?  Sometimes plans that explode and don't work out are a beautiful mess to propel us forward in life in heart and in spirit! Even in the mess of it all, we have a choice.  We can cry and pout, throw a fit, scream at God WHY!  Or...... we can shake it off and choose to be excited at a brand new given opportunity to see what new adventures life will hold.. Not every adventure is made without its bumps.. But choosing to focus on the future the possibility and keep your eyes on the prize of life, is what will get you through.. Life if what we make of it, good bad and ugly! CHOOSE to find the silver lining choose to see the positive in the midst of the negative! Most of all CHOOSE  which side of the lemon will you taste? the sour or the sweet?

To be or not to be? That is the question?

    So in my early morning uggh, I don't want to get out of bed times. :) I came across a sign that said to "You can't expect to be a victor if your are living a victim mentality."  So to be or not to be, is the question? 
    It is a little more deep then I wanted to deal with in the early a.m. LOL! but it got me thinking.. 
   I have decided that this could be a feather ruffling topic! But as always we are all welcome to have opinions, its what makes the world go round. :)  and I am happily and quickly to agree to disagree and keep moving forward.. Lifes to short to have our knickers in a twist all the time LOL! :)
  How many of us have endured terrible hardships and unjust situations in our lives? Probably a good 99% of the population has had something traumatic happen to them that makes them a victim in some form or another.. Being a victim and then Being the Victim are 2 different things..  
A Victim is,
          1. One who is harmed or killed by another: 

2. One who is harmed by or made to suffer from an act, circumstance, agency, or condition: 

3. A person who suffers injury, loss, or death as a result of a voluntary undertaking: 

4. A person who is tricked, swindled, or taken advantage of.

Being a Victim is no laughing matter!

On the flip side of it all some of us have adapted the  Being the Vicitim..... The Victim mentality.. 

 Victim mentality is an acquired (learned) personality trait in which a person tends to regard him or herself as a victim of the negative actions of others.

Taking on the victim mentality can be a life choice, that can rob you of so much of your valuable time you have to give this world!  

So many of us take our hurts we have endured and live in them... I believe there is a time and season for everything just as the bible states in Ecclediastes 3..

To Everything There is a Season

1To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

2A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

3A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;

4A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

5A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

6A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

7A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

8A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.

  We need to take the time to acknowledge our wounds then allow the wounds to heal.  But not live in them. 

  If we choose to live in them, we have bought ourself a oneway ticket to self destruction.... 

  When we live in our wounds! We seek to gather attention in wanting others to feel sorry for us which can makes  us,

• self-absorbed: unable or reluctant to consider a situation from the point of view of other people or to "walk a mile in their shoes".
• defensive: In conversation, reading a non-existent negative intention into a neutral question and reacting with a corresponding accusation, hindering the collective solution of problems and instead creating unnecessary conflict.
• stubborn: tending to reject suggestions or constructive criticism from others who listen and care; unable or reluctant to implement the suggestions of others for one's own benefit.
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•   Phew thats a lot to take in!
•  We dont want to be one of lifes leeches who leech off of peoples empathy and drain them of everything, in essence they become our victims..... 
•   There is so much that can be said on this subject! and it can be a subject that can dig a hole to china till you find the root of it all!  It all boils down to a choice to live the life of a victim or a victor,,,
•   But the good thing is!! Is if you find yourself falling into this situation, the choice is yours to make the change! That is the beauty of it all!
•   We only have one life to live ONE!  and what a waste it would be to live a life of misery focused on self... Today is a new day a new beginning a great day to grab your boot straps pull them up throw on your big girl/boy undies.. and determine you are gonna make a change and start living!! 
•   Dont let the wounds someone has caused you to burden you and drag you down.. They are running free and happy without a care in the world on how they have hurt you! 
•   Dont choose to carry the chains they have given you!  make the choice to let them go!
•   It is your freedom! to just let them go! forgive and move on!  it is the beautiful freedom they cannot take from you no matter how much they try or have hurt you!  The freedom of choice can never be taken from you!  As you always have the choice to walk away with no chains attached! Is is easy? No not at all! is is necessary? Yes!! So it can be said yes I was a victim but I am no longer the victim!!!  

In the beginning there were apples! and all the good names where taken!

   

    Omgoodness! Finding a name for a blog that is not already taken.......... They are all taken!! LOL!  
   So in the randomness of hours of figuring out what to call this thing, my last idea was, Simply Apples. It's odd but kinda cute!  
   I am most positively sure if I research it a bit there will be another blog named the same LOL! :) 
   Why Simply Apples?  Well lets see, I wanted something to fit the randomness of my blog.  I am your everyday ordinary person. :) Full of miscellaneous  thoughts and ideas. :) Wanting to share tidbits of this and that, with no set subject from day to day...  So thinking it over, Apples can be randomly done up.  They can be sliced, baked, stewed, pied, buttered, jammed, juiced, sauced, wined and vinegared....... and I am sure many more things can be done to them :)  And besides there's that old saying an apple a day keeps the doctor away! LOL! I am always good at adding a lil extra nutrition to peoples lives LOL! 
     So begins my journey with this blog.. It is my hope to inspire, to share ideas, recipes, to share my random silliness, and even my heart!  
     So hello world!  My name is Mindee Green I am a wife of going on 17 yrs! A mother of 2 beautiful boys 10 and 13, ..... (Am I really that old!!!! 0_o ) I am a photographer, and a artist, I also am a homeschoolin momma. (Yes I have grey hairs to prove it!! LOL! ) 
    I live in a teeny tiny town in the boonies in WA, on a small 7 acre farm :) I love my family, I love my turkeys, love my chickens, love my horses, well I just love my life LOL! it has its bumps and lumps.. But I am sure to keep God the center of it all! 
    He is faithful to iron out the wrinkles! :)  I am learning how to spell better everyday I school my kids.. So be warned my grammar, punctuation, and spelling is awful.  I know the world is full of grammar police and I have been ticketed repeatedly LOL! but its ok.... I try, and that is all that counts! LOL!
    Anyways I look forward to pouring myself into this blank slate .. Maybe someone will read it maybe no one will :) either way its all good! This will be my journal my recipe book and picture album and bits and pieces of me.. So not a waste of my time :) anyways Thank you for joining in!  l hope you all have an amazing day!